428,571 hands of punishment!

After a Christmas break from The Vic, I returned to a winning session on Sunday. Even after running my Kings into Aces for a £400+ pot, I managed to finish up over £200.

Although I am not result driven, I had posted 6 back to back losing sessions previously to this session (dropping over £1,000), and was simply glad to get back to winning ways.

During the few days I took off, I did a lot of thinking about bringing my A-Game more often, keeping focused, talking less, and working hard on my external body behaviour (from general body language to reducing my physical tells).

I was also extremely motivated by the words in Garry Kasparov's book (How Life Imitates Chess), even reading the first few chapters captivated my imagination.

He preaches self development and immense preparation via strategy....

"...if you play without long-term goals your decision will become purely reactive and you'll be playing your opponent's game, not your own. As you jump from one new thing to the next you will be pulled off course, caught up in what's right in front of you instead of what you need to achieve..."

Ohh my god! How fucking true!

So I put together a solid strategy, consisting of what you may call a template of actual game play, in addition I devised non result / play driven goals, and on Sunday I began to put this into practise.

I was pleased to have played through the session and kept to my overall strategy and work toward my goals that I set out.

But Tuesday was another fucking story. I let some fucking fat, smelly prick get under my skin. Then I let a complete newbie irritate me with his (and his friend's) retarded analysis of a hand. Why on earth do I care? Fuck me!

In between all this, I missed a draw, lost couple of pots, and found myself off course. My game plan, goals, and strategy was lost.

Am I really that weak? That mentally weak? No wonder I am playing £1-£2 still after all these years. I have issues with my mentality! Big issues! Which hold me back.

So in order to punish my weakness, develop my patience, and prove my ability to stick to a plan I decided to return to Party Poker for 428,571 hands of 6 max cash games.

429,571 hands will earn me 30,000 Party Poker points which I can exchange for $1,500 in cash.
My objective is to play the hands and break even while doing so, this is a test of patience (and genuinely a punishment for Tuesday's performance!).

If I 12 table I get just over 1,000 hands an hour. If I 9 table I get about 750.

I plan to play a minimum of 5,000 hands a day. So if I play everyday that is like 86 days of playing.

If I win while playing I can move up stakes, and then earn more points per hands, hence reducing the days of punishment!

My objective is to complete this objective! Simple as that! Earn 30,000 Party Points, and don't go broke while attempting to do so.

That's where I am right now, end of post (updates to follow).