Happy New Year guys!
All the losses have been at The Vic (1-2 and 1-3).
I am not going to lie I am feeling somewhat dejected to say the least, well more like I feel like quitting -but I am not obviously.
Its sometimes hard to look back at hands and results and evaluate how I am playing during a horrendous run of results like this, because your judgement becomes a little bit clouded and not so objective.
But I really have not been doing anything different to what I was doing before this period of losses and all along the time I have been getting your backing.
I look for suitable situations to aggressively isolate fish, and I constantly adjust to semi competent regs who show signs of adjusting to me.
This does mean I have to get my money in somewhat light at times, and this is causing a great deal of variance in my results.
I also bet very thinly for value, which is a direct result of re adjusting to people adjusting to me. I mean what's the fucking point of creating a decent loose image where people are willing to pay me off with worse hands but I think its less variance to check down.
Looking back over the last few sessions, at the big hands / pots I have lost, they have been pretty nasty coolers, and there have been 2 / 3 per session.
But one thing I will say is I have been relentless even during the midst of a losing session. I wont let up, I will continue to try my best to iso, attack weakness (especially pre flop) and hammer away.
And I think this may certainly be an area I can re evaluate. I remember talking to Ramey, and he said that if he is losing in a session, he will tighten up and not make any "plays / moves".
I don't, I just carry on, and I think even though I think I am not tilted and the plays I am making are "+EV", I think you cant help but be slightly misguided in your decision making when you are losing. Every one makes better decisions when they are winning, you see things much more clearly, and you have confidence and momentum carrying you forward.
That's why I think, recently I have either big wins or big losses.
I need to tighten up when the session is not going my way, because my decisions or worse let my overall strategy / approach is flawed -or at the very least a little bit forced.
What do you think? Do you carry on sticking to your overall strat. during a losing session or do you tighten up?
I really do believe the way I am playing in these games, gives me the opportunity to win the most I can by really putting myself in spots to exploit my experience, skill and edge I have over my opponents. But what do I have to show for it? Nothing. Its embarrassing.
Should I just play a TAG game? Nut peddle? There are enough bad players to grind, wait around and get paid. But then you really let go of all control.
I really (even after this run of results) feel I am playing the best poker I have played, feel incredibly confident in my ability to read situations and control / adjust to game dynamics and generally feel OK about things.
But at the same time (and please don't laugh -because I know this sounds ridiculous) I feel shit is rigged against me ALL THE FUCKING TIME! I never get a break when I most need it.
I feel like a deluded fish, who at best is a break even player.
Meh. I have babbled enough. I will start a new results thread. I have got lazy with posting hands and discussing shit, so after each session I will make more of an effort to do so.
Also I have quit smoking. I don't want to smoke EVER AGAIN! Without realising it weed has ruined my life! I have made some terrible decisions this year as a result of it (non poker related), and feel I need to get a grip.
I want to work forwards May 2012, if I have not shown a decent return at that point, I will probably want to end our deal and probably quit poker (or at least not take it seriously) and concentrate on getting back my career back on track with JD.
But until then, I am going to give it 100%, and keep dreaming of summer in Vegas with you boys.
Thank you for your continued support boys, means more than you can imagine to me. Hope you are all well, would love to hear about what you been up to!
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