Day 3: Accomplished!

After waiting over 45 minutes for a bus in the freezing cold on Monday, I knew I would come down with something, and I have. I am drinking lots of lemon honey tea and trying to get better, but have been off work Tuesday and last night -not that I need much of an excuse not to go in. 

I did meet up with Hassan yesterday to discuss the prospect of going back to JD. It was actually lovely seeing him and catching up with him. Its funny how similar we are, he is basically a brown version of me. We have been through the same experiences, and our careers were headed down the same exact route, until I swayed away to poker.

I am happy I was able to articulate my motivation to return, we spoke about Hannah, and my desire to start a family with her. Talking to him really cemented my decision to do what I am doing. I want this.

I am a little concerned however, because my return would be subject to H/R and relevant checks. I have a lot of gaps in my employment, it may cause a problem. I hope not. 

I should hear back from him today. 

No issues not smoking last night, even with Hannah sitting next to me and smoking on the sofa. I will say that its easier not to smoke when I am not feeling well, so Ill be properly tested when I recover. 

More vivid dreams last night, and happy to report I fell asleep very quickly. 

Poker was horrific yesterday, and I stupidly entered several comps in the evening knowing I wasn't 100% to play, and ended up bricking everything -denting my already small bankroll. 

I feel a lot of pressure to play in the hope of getting a score, really really need the money for Hannah's Birthday and Christmas, especially knowing I wont get much from Primark after all my sick days.